Movin’ and Shaken
A whole lotta changes in my life lately. DS, my dog, and I have moved out of our apartment and into a townhome, and Sweetheart and I broke up. As you can imagine, I've experienced a lot of emotion lately. Emotionally, spiritually, and literally, I am sorting through and unpacking. The townhome is unpacked enough to be functional, but as busy as I am, it will be a good while until everything is unpacked. The same could be said of my heart. There was both beauty and heartbreak in my relationship with him. There were good lessons learned, and I don't want to believe lies about myself or reject the good in my haste and grief.
Friends helped me pack up my apartment and move to the townhome, and another friend is helping me unpack the emotional and spiritual boxes in my heart. I'm working with a spiritual director and I feel very hopeful and good about it.
I'm especially thankful to God for the prayer I've received on the phone in the past several days.
This song sung by Fernando Ortega really touched my heart.
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March 3rd, 2010 at 4:38 am
Thanks for sharing. I hope things go quickly for you unpacking on both fronts, physically, and emotionally.
March 3rd, 2010 at 10:11 am
The wonderful thing about you that should inspire other's is that you WILL move on, with good thoughts and thus good emotions, and you WIll learn whatever you can from this part of your life's adventure.With the result being, becuse of what has happened and why, that there is, now, a future for you that will be even betterthan the one you might have had otherwise; not just for what you will learn, but also because, above all, you desire righteousness and goodness and truth in your life and in your relationships. And so, realize, with joy, my sister, that you get to fall in love all over again!
And don't you know that you are a treasure in a field and a pearl of great price?
Of course you do!
And so, keep being good, just as you were created to be!
Elyew
March 3rd, 2010 at 10:21 am
We're still praying here. God will restore the years that the locust has eaten (Joel 2:2a).
March 4th, 2010 at 10:33 am
Hi again lady,
Live it up, woman.
So sorry to read of your saddened heart. Strange to say but I felt to pray for you, a while ago, when I first read of your new relationship because I felt something was not right. So gllad I did.
I adore color, intimately, and have discovered that when I go through painful emotional trials, life's colors simply fade away and the world seems to look a dull grey!
When this happens, I have learnt to discipline my mind and 'will' myself to SEE color.
I look at my darling little one's beautiful hair. I purposefully gaze at clouds in the sky. The usually abhored bathroom mirror!! becomes my friend as I deeply soul stare to stir up the gifts within me, towards richer appreciation of who God has created me to be.
Regardless of my pain, I live with zeal and zest towards greater joy and more of Jesus Christ in my life. Whatever form he may choose to enrich me by,merely opening my heart by opening my eyes, again, seems to work wonders for me.
Here's wishing you a color-filled rest of your week with little sparkly surprises and rainbow-soaked moments.
You are special and you are important. Rejoice in your life this week and weekend. There is so much to live for
March 4th, 2010 at 9:00 pm
@WhoamI-Thank you
@Elyew-'a treasure in a field and a pearl of great price'. (smile) you're right.
@The Wild Man Yes He will.
@HisWildCherry That's such a great idea 'willing yourself to see color' like deliberately paying attention to the beauty in the world. Love that!
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March 17th, 2010 at 7:10 pm
You'll get better! Just remember what we talked about. God is there for you and will never leave. Look at everything that God has given you! You Shula, are truly blessed!