My story must be told
I have heard what I came to hear. I know God is generous and I'll hear more. But everything else is just bonus.
Shauna Niequist gave a presentation on "Your story must be told". My heart turned over in my chest. Y'all know ever since my first husband's affair that my voice has been silent and then faltering and then picked up steam. But I've second guessed everything I've written. The momentum of my voice has been missing. But I believe it's coming back. I shared a conversation with Shauna after her talk and she encouraged me this way, "by waiting until your story is at the point of the happy ending, you are telling people that God only shows up at the happy endings and you know that's not true".
Darlings, I want you to know how God is showing up for me at this middle point in my story. I am an alive, sensuous, dynamic woman while I am also a single mother. I am a passionate advocate for women who have been sexually abused. I am passionate about encouraging women to lay hold of sexual wholeness and see that vitalize their marriage. I am making friends with Longing while living in the Meantime. I sell sex toys in a porn-free, classy, educational way. I am passionate about being a mother and I love the process of loving my children to live out all the gorgeous potential God planted inside them. I love to laugh. I love to dance. I love to cook. I love to see the spark in someone's eyes when enjoying good conversation. I'm convinced I will marry again yet I'm not waiting to be deputized to fully live. I cannot wait to enjoy sex again and blog about it, yet I will wait, because I want the glory to fall down rich and sweet with no deterrents. I live with longing and joy, sorrow and laughter, loneliness and connection. I feel like I've been away and I'm being drawn back.
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October 11th, 2009 at 12:30 am
Welcome back!
October 11th, 2009 at 10:35 am
Sounds like you got a new shot in the arm and revival of your spirit. That is wonderful. I do look forward to hearing more from you in the future.
There is a scripture that says we comfort one another as we have recieved comfort in our troubles. You do have such a compassion for others that comes through.
October 11th, 2009 at 7:23 pm
Yes, Yes, Yes and A-men! Shauna'a wisdom was... magnifico! In all things, give thanks unto the LORD Who is restoring everything to Himself through Jesus! He is the God of redemption! The God of the new and better story; of life after death; of faith and healing. And the really, really cool part is..... He's your God!
October 13th, 2009 at 8:26 am
I'm glad you got to go. It was a beautiful setting for a beautiful event, wasn't it? Waking up to a crisp fall morning, with a light dusting of snow on the grass, and stepping outside to find healing, joy, mirth, and fellowship. Bless you, sis!
October 13th, 2009 at 4:03 pm
Darling Shula ~ what joy I hear in your voice and sense in your heart. I'm SO glad that you went to C21 and look forward to being a receiver of all that you'll share with us because of it.
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